insomniai can...

insomniai can't sleep.i want to call you,but you're probably busyfucking your boyfriendor something like that.golly gee, this sucksto be me.

Today, I a...

Today, I am a mess.I stressed myself to the max over this audition for W;t, and I worked MY ASS OFF on understanding cancer and treatments and John Donne poems and the play, and I worked on it in a million classes, and I had objectives and ideas and everything prepared for the sides I was given. I was mostly off-book! And then I got to the audition and was handed a different side and had no chance to read the other ones at all. And I KNEW it, because I've read the play. But since my main strength as an actor is my ability to work my ass off, and since that didn't show, in my mind, I am fucked. I'm probably not going to get this part. And now, I have to figure out what the fuck to do with my life. On top of that, life is gonna be pretty hard until I get that phone-call letting me know. Life seriously sucks today. And I just feel so futile.